Just saw the movie Eat, Pray, Love. Have to wonder how many people are going to sell everything, rent a storage unit and get the hell out of dodge! I have been fantasizing about doing all of that for several years. My brain is constantly in motion about how much I am worth if I just sell it all and run away to Mexico, Costa Rica or a variety of places. I guess in some ways, that was what I was doing when I decided to buy a building and open a restaurant in a small, country town! Just a heads up, it doesn’t always end up the same as the movie or the book.
As I watched the movie, there were a few quotes in there that definitely hit a nerve. The first one was when they were in Rome, I think it was Rome…don’t quote me on that. Sometimes my brain, just exits the seat I am sitting in, and my thoughts roam elsewhere. But, what I got out of it was “Ruin is the road to transformation”. My God, that could be the title of a self-help book if I ever heard one! If you look at my life, you wouldn’t get that I was a train wreck, well maybe on my personal front, but definitely not on the business front. I have it pretty together. Getting 5,000 things done a day to keep two restaurants running. No personal assistants. I do have a house cleaner that cleans twice a month. The house looks great for about twenty minutes and then it almost looks like a tornado took over. Paper everywhere, clothes thrown here and there. Dirty dishes making it as far as the sink. I kinda feel like that is my life. My brain rarely stops. I do work pretty hard on balancing the cool stuff though. I always take two days off from the restaurants a week. I try and do getaways as often as I can. I live for my horse back rides galloping through the fields with my friend Julie and her magnificient horses, Marty Moo and Frida. I attempt to exercise regularly, but to be honest, I hate exercising. I like doing things that are fun as opposed to required. I hung out with a buddy yesterday that has the workout gene…..oh how I wish I had that gene. I mean I do work out, but I really would rather eat one of my fabulous pizzas. So, my guess is that I have the eating part pretty much down….so I am one-third the way through the book as we speak!
Sorry, back to the “Ruin is the road to transformation”. Is that not like one of the best quotes ever? I feel like my life is always in a transformation mode. I am always trying to figure out how to find my happy. Always trying to appreciate wherever the hell I am. If things suck, I try and tell myself that it is just part of the process and that there is a lesson to be learned. Lately, I just tell myself that everything that happens is just material for my book or my speeches. I try and laugh about it all, but I would be lying if I didn’t say that sometimes it is just totally overwhelming. There is a scene in the movie where she narrates this. She says that if you don’t realize that everything that is happening is happening for a reason then you aren’t getting it. I have several friends that seem to be going through this process also. We each handle it differently, but nonetheless, we are all going through it in some shape or form. We are all in transformation and I think it is a damn good thing!
There was a scene in the movie, I believe she was at the prayer place in India and her friend….the one that annoyed her in the beginning, said to her that she needed to forgive herself. Okay, so here is a bit of honesty. I started crying instantly. Several months ago, I had someone that annoyed me like that, say the same thing to me. Ironically, it was over a text…….this person seems to communicate best that way…or at least communicates that way to me the best. When he sent me that text, I sat on my couch and just started bawling. He told me that I needed to forgive my ex, and then he said I needed to forgive myself. I, of course, used my favorite defense mechanism….sarcasm..and sent something sassy back. Damit, I thought about his words all night. Matter of fact, I have never stopped thinking about those words since he sent them. Who would know that that annoying man, that for some reason I feel pretty strongly I need to have a connection with would have such an affect on me. I have no idea what the connection will be, maybe just to throw me a few words of wisdom every now and then. My guess, is that he had to deal with this somewhere in his life also. Maybe that is why our paths crossed. Well, that’s what the book would say anyway. So, there I sit in the movie theater playing all this in my head. Realizing that this is obviously my next step in my transformation. Seriously, though, I don’t see myself headed to India anytime soon. The flies would kill me and I have no desire to see all of the poverty. And, the idea of silence for more than a few minutes almost makes me a bit sick to my stomach. My guess, it just might be what the doctor ordered!
Ok, on to LOVE!!!!!!!!….well, I am just not ready to go there!
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