Wow, it’s been awhile since I have been on here. Sorry about that. I am actually putting most of my focus on writing a book. I have to say, I never would have imagined that I would actually sit down long enough to put all my crazy thoughts down on paper, but I am. It’s some pretty good shit and quite frankly rather therapeutic. I can’t give anything away as of yet, other than it is about my crazy life as a restaurant owner and my crazy love life that is just really too much for me these days.
I guess you could say, I am moving into a different stage in my life. Some might call it a midlife crisis, but I see it rather differently. I actually see myself growing up. Instead of always trying to figure out what is going on in other people’s minds, I am trying to focus on mine. I have realized of late that my brain never , ever stops. Someone pointed out to me the other day that I can have complete conversations on my own, but somehow I actually think the other person is involved in the chat. He may be right, but then again, maybe if he knew how to communicate, I wouldn’t have to do it. Crap, I did it again.
I would have to say that part of my character is that I have to communicate and I have to do it right now. The internet, texting, and cell phones add to the misery of a compulsive communicator. I think compulsive might be a bit harsh. I like to figure things out and communicating gets it done.
I actually feel better than I have in months. My beloved Madame K’s is in her final week, my cabin is getting ready to be sold to the county so I won’t have to worry about flooding anymore and I am planning a two week paradise trip to Mexico and maybe even a quick road trip to my favorite Dude Ranch in Republic. Go figure the name of the ranch is K Diamond K Ranch. I just love the letter K, what can I say? Mom’s not so happy about the Mexico trip. She watches the news. I don’t….just too depressing.
I am in a strange surreal place with the closing of my baby! The place has been packed for weeks with well wishers reminding me of the good in people. I guess I have realized that people have loved Madame K’s as much as me. Last night one of my customers told me that he had to tell me a story about….you guessed it, ME!!!!!! Those are the best! He told me that several years ago he had come into Madame K’s and I had greeted him very warmly. He was alone and it is my philosophy that if someone is alone, I always try and give a little extra. I tell my staff to do the same. Well, evidently, I was in a charming mood and I went and got him a newspaper to read from down the street. He told me last night that when he had come in that night, he was having a really horrible day and that my kindness changed everything. He mentioned that it changed his view of people. Tears were rolling down my face as he told me the story. He said that over the years he has told that story to all of his friends and anyone that would listen. He told me of my incredible heart. I was wowed! You see, that’s how I always try to be in general. Nothing makes me happier than trying to brighten someone’s day. Don’t get me wrong, I am no Pollyanna, I have my bitchy just like everyone else, but I try to keep it to myself, well mostly, unless, of course, someone has done me wrong. Then, I am not always so sweet. But, in general, I try to treat people the way I want to be treated. Wouldn’t it be fabulous if everyone just took that extra step and showed some warmth? God the world would be a better place.
I noticed today that I had a little sass to my step. I threw out smiles at the mall like nobodies business. I sat next to an old guy at the bar and started a conversation right up. He was tickled pink. I left a great tip for the bartender and just generally tried to get a smile out of everyone. My guess, is I did it becasue someone made me feel good and I wanted to pass it on! To the boys at Best Buy, thanks for always being so awesome when I have to return crap because I always buy the wrong thing! And a special thanks to the man that told me the story, he may have just changed my view of people too!
That’s about all I got for today folks! I’ll be back in a couple of weeks. Remember to show a little friendly! We are all just trying to move forward after all! At least, that’s the way I have chosen to see it!